Claire Cox
This sonnet series is an investigation into ideas around a poetry of witness. It arose from practice-based research undertaken for the University of Bristol’s ‘Environmental Keywords’ project, which looked into differing understandings of words commonly used in environmental communications, such as ‘transition’, ‘net zero’ and ‘vulnerability’. I was interested in what new insights into ‘vulnerability’, as a moment-to-moment embodied experience, might be revealed through poetry. For this experiment, I devised a way of writing which followed four made-up ‘rules’: 1) use first-person only 2) free-write each Friday, wherever you happen to be 3) record that day under six different categories – research reading, bodily sensations, weather/landscape, the immediate observable environment, thoughts/ruminations, and news headlines 4) condense that writing into a regular poetic form, in this case fourteen-line poems (sonnets), ensuring that each poem contains at least one phrase from each category. Using these ‘rules’, handwritten notes were generated from July to September 2023. I typed up the transcripts from each week using colour coding to visually differentiate each category. I then harvested the most resonant statements from each category to assemble into an unformed proto-poem. Next, I edited that material down into a fourteen-line sonnet form. In the event, I allowed myself two sonnets per day as opposed to the originally envisioned one. The initial journaling format, which used dates and times of day to title each set of two sonnets, has been streamlined here to let the reader piece together the incremental flow of information for themselves.
OF VULNERABILITY
The conditions determined by physical, social, economic and environmental factors or processes, which increase the susceptibility of a community to the impact of hazards.
Hyogo Framework for Action, 2006
*
Not rain but sleet, box hedge topped white.
Friends visiting sunny Brisbane WhatsApp snaps –
a Bee Gees statue: three bronze, two tourists
singing. We’ve forgotten this morning’s sonic boom.
Chinese refugees are taking the South American
route to the US. The Darién Gap, a pinch
of jungle towards elsewhere. There will
be a cancer operation tomorrow. This time
someone we know. ICU on standby
for haemorrhaging. A friend has asked
to phone tonight, perhaps about her husband.
The cancer he has he can’t pronounce –
as if we can speak things into existence
as if we can mangle them out.
*
16°c the PC screen says. Droplets trail
the windowpane, the mallow closes pink
on itself. Cold enough for a fleece.
I stay indoors, observe the shaking garden,
the daylilies’ brief mouths. What is safe?
Our brass-handled chest, the smoothness
of the sea-washed pebble quiet
on the windowsill? Two crows blow south.
Jackdaw and woodpigeon. Europe is braced
for the ‘hottest day ever’ as ‘Cerberus’ rages.
I open Kathleen, definition p.12: ‘things of value
that are exposed to the potential for harm’.
Sweat slicks my lip. I drink hot water
– pollen, photons, words – we are breached.
*
Overhead light yellows the blue chill.
Two house sparrows. One cock,
chestnut cap drenched and busy.
I roll down my sleeves. Drink coffee.
Poultry workers have tested positive
for bird flu. The new rescue dog is alert –
why go towards harm? Better to refuse,
head down, eyebrows bouncing. But skirts
can drink water, grow heavy, drown you.
Sea levels must rise 100 meters here
before we’re submerged. My sister in Denmark
would be under water, too. Somerset, Lincoln-
shire mostly gone. I trace future coasts
with my finger: contemplate the power of blue.
*
Morning tongue thick with coffee burr.
Microsoft’s banner: drone-footage cityscape.
Last night Chris Packham. Earth. Pangea massing
half of the globe. Magma. A jolt in trajectory.
Here cirrus streaks north to south. The sky
hombre blue – ice to baby. A red kite keens.
Apples round on our little tree. Breeze cool. The vetch
has toppled. Suspected lioness loose in Berlin.
Residents told to stay indoors. Shari’s questioning
face fillers. Should she: shouldn’t she? Everyone
else is. We plump our own vision – blotch the globe.
No edges. Subductions at our cheek. Bone
as tundra. A metaphor is to be two places at once.
The fire in the cave. The shadows dancing.
*
A dead moth – flattened bronze. Antihistamines
in a box. Over-sized clouds west to east, under-
bellies of grey. Lavender fills with bumble bees.
Jasmine’s bright trumpets fall. My throat tightens.
Knife crime has surged 16% in just one year.
The rescue dog snaps at the buzzing.
Jaws blank, he lies on his stash of tennis balls.
Sheep graze the browning hillside. This summer’s
getaway prompts warnings as 12 million cars
hit the road. I scrunch my drying hair.
An Ecotopian Lexicon offers ‘Blockadia’. Three
First Nations women versus a pipeline. Linked arms.
Civil disobedience in Washington DC. Hunger strikes.
Shadows at the gate. The birch stem shimmers.
*
Inflammation bangles my wrist.
Spitting rain. Brief sun on grass.
An aeroplane roars. Wheat has done
its work. I make invaders of molecules.
Kyiv claims success as southern fighting
intensifies. The air we breathe in the UK
depends on race and income. Rosebay’s
last flowers sway. A melting Swiss glacier
has uncovered a climber missing since 1986.
The swirl of an empty snail shell. Mossed cracks.
Up to 60% of wildfires are man-made. Claims
that the heatwave is bogus are spreading online.
The screen explains sensitivity. What I eat
I am. I am what I breathe – a system hyperalert.
*
The word means shape shifter, our other
animal self. Twin. Mirror. Coupled skin.
I am my jaguar. She barks, sharply,
the guest dog. Her belly a raw reactive pink.
This month is set to be the world’s warmest. Tick bites
mean a surge in meat allergy, the US warns.
There’s a ball at my feet. Two eyes on me. I throw
the ball. It lands in the lavender. Retrieval is sweet.
Jasmine flowers have massed beneath the bench.
The computer hums. My index finger radiantly aches.
She makes that noise – half growl half sneeze.
Daylilies close orange. Weedlings. I cream and talc
her ruptured skin. She stiffens. Upstairs, you block
your ears, tra-la-la our narrowing waveband.
*
Yesterday Oppenheimer. Big Boy and a smuggled
humus sandwich in the cinema’s plump darkness.
Today spectacles bridge my nose. The rescue dog’s
nose flares as he cranes towards the window. 17°c.
The view from bed overcast. Blurred trees sway.
Giant space ‘umbrella’ tied to asteroids
could protect Earth from climate crisis. Too sick
to fight. Somaticize. Head a chaplet of pressure.
The bathroom extractor flaps half-heartedly.
Pigeons froo-froo. Two days to August 6th.
Seventy-eight years since Hiroshima.
Specks of thistledown drift.
The neighbour’s roof is clodded with moss.
Upstairs, through the window, wood-carved ƎVO˩.
*
Sick. And wordless.
*
The Anthropocene Working Group
has proposed Crawford Lake. The golden
spike. Plutonium in the sediments. No one’s
mentioned the Belgian Congo – Plutopia,
Ford, p.199: ‘people began to inspect
their memories for confirmation’. Last night
David Harwood’s Whiteface. The Mammy
hands, the racialised project. Ally/ perpetrator
– how to knock at the door of another skin?
Under the dog star, light fills the screen entirely
and beyond – a rose aglow and softly petalled.
P&O trunks lock in old anger. Voyages infringe.
From beneath, a hull kites between silt and stars.
From above, sails are gulls on mirrored water.
*
Inside my ribs, a chamber papered in grit
and mucus. Alveoli – little cavity. Ethics.
Human tissue. Lexicon as Petrie dish – words
complex as molecules. And still the lungs crackle.
Sleep upright. Next door’s cherry is past fruiting.
A breeze stirs leaves to a languid flap. Not even
jackdaws. Bluebottles gone. Highly mutated COVID
variant found in new countries. The rescue dog
faces window-wards. Furrowed clouds. Denmark
proposes bill to ban Quran burnings. Not even
a magpie or woodpigeon. My window frames
all there is. A crow cuts the top left corner. The dog
flicks his eyebrows, his beard a lion’s point. He sits
upright. Your car returns. Shopping list forgotten.
*
Anna Tsing. Søby – Danish brownfield site.
Hard science. A skew of truth. Like a gull poised
on the breeze, Denmark’s flat. All sky and Skagerrak.
Oat milk sits cold in my middle. The thud of a bee
on the window. Steroid spray. Tinnitus – the ringing
alarm. The wind chime tings – once – twice.
Why was there no water to fight the fire in Maui?
A break in the clouds shows mackerel sky. The raven
clonks on her flight north. UK weather: more than
half a month’s rain to fall in South of England. I’ve
a shadow-pen on my page. Rain-battered lavender.
A ginger-backed bee mithers the last of the mauve
florets. Rosebay sets seed. The rotting tree stump –
frass and ivy. Wood weathers to a pewter glow.
*
Cells collapse – or get defensive. A drone strike
on Moscow causes ‘powerful’ explosion three miles
from Kremlin. It hurts to look up. Bright white clouds
surprising. The seated poodle has fractured into a pair
of cottage loaves, a lobster, a dildo, a dumbbell, a doughy
W lost behind next door’s leylandii. The house on stilts
is a choice. An evacuation drill. The new moon is a lion
– the old, stilled by story-time. The widow’s poem is all
we have. Lost the swifts, the spring-bringers. We agree
we’ve not heard a cuckoo in years. Driven from home
by jackdaws: straw thieves, thatch hatchers, tested
by nesting, she yielded. Elders – we have caring
to spare. Unused compassion finds a way –
lifts the grounded fledgling, invites it to fly.
*
Here’s a tourniquet of gut. Medication
expelled. The cure voided. I cried
at the surgery. The doctor’s face round
and alarmed. He mimed the actions
for the inhaler as if at a child’s party.
I know a family caught up in the Maui fires,
heard of a mother in Vancouver breathing
smoke. The ticks in Denmark are everywhere,
my sister says. We’ll take care crossing the scrub
from her summer house to the dunes. Socks,
boots, long trousers, though their thermometer
reads 30°c. My sister says: don’t believe
the news about the extremists, Denmark
is very safe. What about the mink? I say.
*
Urgent birdsong. The apple tree swells
with fruit and bonhomie. Dove wings whirr.
My bare neck detects only still air, not the chill
of past days. A distant tractor tills Austin’s field.
Soil is dust. Clods atomize, carry over hedges,
grit my eyes. Sunlight greens the field beyond.
Parks & gardens hold key to cooling
overheated cities. Parents tell of shock
as concrete fears force school closures.
Con trail to the west. Feather caught loosely
in a cobweb. A call for papers. The paradox
of ethics: how to write when the house is on fire.
Data on losses ticks down: newt, hedgehog, thrush.
The red kite, a smooth-boned silhouette, hovers overhead.
*
Our rescue dog, alert for wasps, stares
at the ivy. A blackfly lands on my forearm,
wipes its back legs avariciously. No bees
in the grey-grained lavender. A helicopter
bumbles north-north-west. Slow.
Clouds alive as ectoplasm glow behind
the neighbour’s gable. I’ve capsized,
head under water, limbs too heavy to wave
in an imitation of swimming. We can drown
sitting up. There are pillows, memory foam
that can reshape our dented dreams. There’ll be
a flight on Sunday. In my head storms, banned items.
The flight control chaos should be righted by then.
I’m looking forward to wearing my sister’s wool slippers.
*
My friend on holiday’s been robbed
in Copenhagen, took the bridge to Malmö
to get over it, get over the Øresund, showed
her German passport at the border,
passed through like a molecule, like osmosis.
Here the sun skews panes of light across
my woodblock floor. The thermostat clicks.
The hottest-ever month’s turned chilly, steel edge
to this morning’s north-east wind, and the radio says
Brunei’s dissuading homosexuality by death
– but only as a deterrent, and the email says
they’ll do a Scandi Noir tour, my friend and her wife,
before they cross home to England where the sun’s
going in and the floor’s lost its gold.
*
Draft from the nozzle overhead. The bridge
below spans Sjælland and Fyn. Cruising home
at 36,000 feet. Pressure in the inner ear.
Min fødselsdag. Honey and home knits.
Flat chalk, flint. How forceful must this engine be
to counter the drop? We’re told one passenger
has a severe peanut allergy. The North Sea
approaches. Turbulence. What keeps us up?
Rivets, good maintenance, blue metallic paint?
Five ships pass beneath, skirt the tiny windfarm.
Too high. Too high for headlines, too propelled
for birdsong, we share this layer with drifting spiders.
Below me, archipelagos. Islands slender as mutant
hatchlings. The white wake of a boat.